Today, I remembered deviant art and I guess I haven't come here in forever... mostly because my life is so different now that it used to be... I barely have time for myself, let alone deviant art...

I am currently completing my studies abroad and it gets more and more difficult to keep my feet on the ground long enough to even sigh...

At the moment, I am home "vacationing" and I seriously do not want to go back... I just want stay here with my family and friends... I wish it was 2 years ago... I was so full of life and hope and creativity.. This year and the one after, I will be WAY TOO busy with the university and then graduation and then finding a job and settling back in after living abroad for more than a year...

I regret nothing however; if it wasn't for me working so hard to leave home and study in australia, if it wasn't for me going out there on my own and living my life in a very very very different style than what am used to (Which is the good life, which is all about me being handed everything on a silver plate, No, GOLD plate) Then I WOuldn't BE HERE the way i am...

I am now more appreciative of what I have, what I had, what i know and what i learn everyday...

I've been running away ever since I was 13, and I believe that I still am.. but at least today I know that the solution is not out there.. it's right here.. I don't know it yet, but I know that it's here somewhere.. somewhere within me..

And so, I can now stop running away and hope that i've made the right mistakes, and not the wrong ones..

This may seem completely random, but at least this is about me and who I am and what i've learned and what I know..

The main reason I came on DA today was because I miss drawing and painting and I was hoping for inspiration or something, but I suppose it will come to me when it comes to me.. just like it came to me the first time I drew...